“Well daymn, this isn’t working out like I wanted it to.”
I have hit a wall of mild frustration in wanting to keep rolling on the publishing path but at the moment I am having some mental lag with my writing. I have to thank Malflic for linking some things to me to help make sure the upcoming books to have a better chance at being successful. Right now I am swimming through the details and trying to not get discouraged. Yes they are in editing and pre-reading. I have been aware I will probably need to fix a few things in it (like the ending of one that I just cant get my head around.)
Then comes the fun part, one is in a class all its own, it sort of horror, mixed with sex and lots of violence. Top it off with and mingled love story and what do you have. The Shining meets Caligula, at least that is how Malflic describes it, and I say that is about right. So I guess it would be an erotic thriller.
Oh and don’t forget I like to push buttons so of course I had to add a few torrid topics in it too. Hey if the sex and violence isn’t enough just wait till the critics see the controversial other parts. As I ransacked a few old ideas that have been toyed with on their own in various articles I have read I let them blend into a very twisted story.
Now for the best part, the second book in the series has started. There is a life and rhythm to it already and though it holds much of the same story line as the first it shifts the lime light to the second character in the first story. Hey not everyone dies in my books.
All that is well and good but then there is the kicker. I was trying to wade through the contract to get the books published. For those that don’t know I don’t read as well as I write. Words drift around sometimes and of course I really love small print legal jargon (not). So back to Malflic I go and he explains it to me. We hang up and then I have a brilliant idea. Put out a poetry book first and start a fan base.
Back in the days I was on myspace I used to write a lot of dark poetry. There is one particular series of poems I wrote that were about vampires, in particular Kitty and Raven. It was a love story filled with danger and intrigue. Now I have switched focus for a little bit, this new project will be interesting and be what I had thought it would be at one time, my first book.
I wrote dark poems long before I crossed over into erotica. Blood and gut that drew readers like flies to rotting corpses as the stories dripped off my page. That is also where I got the name Lord Raven from (longer story there), but I had always fancied seeing those poems in print. So now here we are, I am planning on taking all them and set them in format in the next few weeks or however long it takes and releasing what had been a dream of mine for many years.
Now for the rest of the furry details, speaking of furries it has been mentioned that I have a love for that group. Yes it is true and in part because I was a mascot in collage. Getting to run around and act crazy under the disguise that no one could see through was quite appealing. Of course being the only guy on the cheerleading squad had its perks too but that is a later story. The thing is I recently realized that I have become that form once again. Lord Raven is my new outfit, if you will. I can hide the real me from the world in that persona and I like it. It wasn’t till a few weeks ago that I had this epiphany.
Several people wondered when I first started appearing on Malflic.com if I was in fact Malflic’s alter ego. Well I can tell you this is not true. See Malflic is the facts and details guy that will match the color of the rope he is bringing with the clothing or skin tone of his rope bunny. He is organized and for all practical purposes much better read and educated than I am. I for my part, admire and respect him greatly. He has been a wonderful source of information and help as I always have one kind of question or another.
Me? I am like chaos incarnated and only focused when I wanted to be. This hasn’t been an issue for the most part till recently. Looking at the task at hand, it is a little daunting. Formatting and taking what I have created with blood sweat and my heart and putting it into print, yes a dream but it is also a bit frightening. Some people will love it, some will hate it. One thing is certain there will be few who stand middle road and say it was just ok.
So as I undertake this journey I hope to find something more out about myself. That I am smarter than I often give myself credit for. I heard people say it, now it is time to step out and believe it. I can get past the furry details and become what I have always dreamed of being.